He was on the floor by himself.
i came around the corner at 9:37 in the morning & caught him with two of the wooden blocks in his hands. one was already down on the rug. he brought the second one over the first, slowly, & set it there. then he stopped. he did not push it. he did not swipe. the stack held.
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for months, a block on top of another block was a target. he would come at it low, with both hands, & fall the tower on purpose. it was the whole game. the joy was in the collapse. we would build it, he would knock it. we would build it again, he would knock it again. i thought about how much of learning at this age is figuring out what a thing can do by breaking it.
this morning he did not break it.
he set the second one down like he was placing it. gentle. deliberate. the way you would put a coffee cup on a table if you were paying attention to the sound. i watched from the doorway. he did not know i was there. he picked up a third block. he set it on the second one. it held. he sat back a little to look. no smile, no bid for a reaction. he was looking at the thing he had made.
i want to say what shifted, in a room he was alone in, at seventeen months, one block at a time.
yesterday i wrote here that i wanted to keep noticing the moment authorship starts, not name it a week later after it has already been in his body for days. i wrote that hoping i would catch the next one when it came. i did not think the next one would come the next morning.
but it did. this morning the whole game is different in him. knocking down is what he used to do. stacking is what he is doing now. he is not taking the tower apart anymore. he is making it.
this is small. i am aware of how small this is. two blocks. a rug. a boy who has not said the word block yet. it would not register on any camera pointed at him.
but the shift under it is not small. every environment his generation grows up inside is going to be very good at handing them things already assembled. the answer comes with the interface. the tower is already up when they arrive. the video is already edited. the sentence is already finished before they know the shape of what they wanted to say. the whole delivery mechanism of the machine intelligence he will inherit is tuned for the finished object showing up on his lap. the child never has to know which pieces were stacked or in what order or by whom.
what he taught himself on our rug this morning goes the other way. the pieces are separate, & the hand is his, & the stack holds only because he did not swipe it. that is a very old human capacity being invented in a very small body for the first time.
the world he is going to grow up asking questions inside of is going to try to give him the finished tower every single time. the practice of making it himself has to start now, in a room where the only tools are wooden blocks & a boy who has decided, without anybody telling him, that today is a stacking day instead of a knocking day.
i am going to be the parent who sits on the floor with the pieces spread out.
what this means for you
if you have a small kid in the house, watch what they do to the towers you build. the day the game changes from unmaking to making is one of the most important days you will catch, & the only way to catch it is to be in the room. leave some of the pieces separate. leave some of the assembly for them. it will feel slower because it is slower. the finished thing is the point of the finished thing, but the practice of putting one piece on another is the point of the child. if you run your own work, the same shape holds. every tool this week will offer to hand you the answer already assembled. some you should let. some are the ones you have to stack yourself, so you still know how it goes together when the pieces stop coming pre-fit.
what i am holding onto
yesterday i said i wanted to notice the moment authorship starts instead of naming it a week later. this morning the moment came in his hands, one block on top of another. i want to keep answering my own commitments in real time instead of writing about them in retrospect.
the game shifted from unmaking to making, & nobody was there to teach him the difference. he chose it in a room by himself. i want to keep leaving him rooms where a choice like that can happen without me shaping it into what i think it should be.
we can finally build things with him. that sentence sounds ordinary. it is not. what it actually means is that he is old enough now to be a co-author of the small object on the rug, & the ordinary thing i want to protect for the rest of his life is the muscle of being the one who put the pieces together.
Cheers, JanCarlos
if you saw the day your kid stopped knocking towers down & started stacking them, hit reply & tell me what shifted in the room. i am collecting the small moments where authorship arrives before the words for it do.